Thanks for all the advice and shennanigans guys, it did cheer me up.
But lying here in bed with the boyfriend still at work, a stinking cold and having been told this evening that although the interview I went on this morning was perfect and couldn't be faulted, someone else had more experience and was offered the job; I'm still dwelling on this.
I worked shit hours serving drinks I can't afford to rude, drunk people over horrible deafening music
Before that I worked for a management team who wrote a list of what they didn't like about each member of staff and then accidentally pinned it to the notice board.
Before that I worked minumum wage deep cleaning the campus halls of residence - a DISGUSTING job where I dealt with food that had been left to rot for months, maggots, earwigs, bathrooms coated in mould. And on top of that we were all housed in 3 adjoining flats on campus, so whilst all my friends went off to their hometowns and on holiday I was stuck in a place where the only person I knew was my boyfriend who had been put in the next bedroom to me and was cheating on me.
I've worked evenings and weekends at Sainsburys whilst doing full time A Levels and I've worked every hour of the day as a fucking elf in a busy shopping centre over christmas.
I have never worked a job where I didn't have to deal with arseholes or health hazards and I've never been paid more that 25p over minumum wage and I have always given it my all. I work as hard as possible in every job I have ever done regardless of my personal situation and regardless of how shit the job is. But none of this seems to matter, I still end up with a complete cunt for a manager who doesn't give a shit that I really was trying to do my job properly. And its not like I can go into a job interview and just say to them, I know this is a basic job that any idiot can do, but with me you really would be getting someone so painfully honest and hard-working that I would always do my best regardless of how menial the job is and thats really what you need. Partly because its inappropriate and partly because no one would believe it.
Sorry, I know its a huge self pitying rant but this has really just been the icing on the cake this month and its pushed me over the edge (plus I decided that I was going to treat myself to the thorntons chocolate box I keep walking past in the supermarket and forbidding myself to get and when I got to there tonight they were fucking sold out)