geminisnake said:
Why do you have no choice Jessie?
Mmmm, I'm very bad coz I wouldn't/won't do work that's cack anymore. Been there, done that and actually better off on the sick
Money has never been an incentive for mwe to do things.
It's a tough one gem.
I have responsibilities.
I don't want to lose my home.
I don't want to lose my dogs.
I like going out.
I like to drink, smoke and ingest.
I have no savings or pension.
I'm no spring chicken.
I'm fearful of being old, alone and
poor.
My work is stressful and demanding and, during rush hour, the travel is a real slog, but the pay just about covers all of the above (apart from savings or pension, which is a problem).
I'm fortunate in that I consider what I actually
do to be ethical - nobody gets hurt, everybody benefits - and I also do my work in an ethical, straightforward, honest, way.
I'm not unfamiliar with long periods of being inbetween opportunities.
Ultimately, of course, it's a choice, but it
feels as if the alternative would be very dark, so often it seems like not much of one.
AND I've been having a bad few months anyway.
*sigh*
Still, I'm hoping for a job change in the near future (negotiations are down to the wire,) and if it comes off, things should be a wee bit better. I've been headhunted by a firm to do the same thing as I do at the moment but in a bit more of a leadership position, so I'll be working with a team of three or four others instead of being a single person unit. The dosh should be a wee bit better and the opportunity to really build something solid and stable is clear.
If I get the role, I'll still be working just as hard (at least for the first couple of years), but it's a firm that is focussed, has a plan, is prepared to invest AND, actually came to find ME to execute the plan

.
I've always been hopeful of finding a niche in my working life where I can feel at home, build something that lasts (so I can then throttle back and yet still enjoy a good income), grow as a person, support and mentor others, etc.
Maybe this one will be it.
I kind of like what I do and would like to find a way to create something good for myself that will last for a long time and be stable, so I don't have to worry so much about the future of my finances.
Fingers crossed.
Woof