Dillinger4
Es gibt Zeit
most present -
- when i worked painting doors for a furniture company, on a hilltop. i was really focussed and mediative, applying 7 layers of paint to each door, and carefully sanding down between each layer. i walked around the sunny hilltop in my lunchbreak in a state of utter bliss and awareness.
- whilst tripping, esp in the very beginning of a trip where its like having new glasses- everything is clearer, more alive, but not visually distorted. it feels enlightened for a while, and then you slip past it, you become TOO enlightened and the beautiful madness begins.
- deep in a flow state whilst drawing or painting, and listening to music. sometimes whilst juggling, esp if im learning something new.
least present - really tired, ill, or drunk but even then my mind is quiet, im just less with it. maybe at school, forming a shell around myself. or when i'm looking forward to something or the end of something. eg 'i want to go home now!'
mind chatting - hardly ever. my mind is very quiet, im not proud of it or anything. its partly a defense, i think. sometimes it tells me a story about something thats happened, but i don't take it seriously anymore. sometimes i really feel my mind working, but its not in words, just working through emotions, dreaming without pictures. but lying in bed sometimes i can feel the cogs of emotion turning, and watch that with detached interest.
mind quiet- thats normal state for me, but doesn't mean im fully present.
Wow!
How completely ordinary!
