I've been in this weird no man's land for a few months now, having amassed and now long surpassed the amount of money I needed to buy myself a whopping great flat screen tv LCD HD whatever thing I've found myself completely paralysed whenever I've gone to buy it.
I've thought about it a bit and realsied it is because I have never spent this much money on anything before (excluding my house and housey related stuff). I keep reading up on tellys, committing to getting one and then bottling it. It just seems like a cuntlot of money to shell out for something which definitely isn't gonna change my life for the better by any noticeable degree, however, I do actually really want one and I want a Wii and I want to buy into that lifestyle of having friends round to watch a film on my fucking massive telly, get them all to comment on how shithot my sound system is and then get them to dance and contort themselves for my amusement using my cock sticks and my Wii. But, in the back of my mind, a nagging doubt lingers that that is not my life, those are not my people and nothing I can ever do can change that: that I am now, always have been and ever will be an analogue manchild, doomed to never watch anything on BBC4 when it's actually on. In a few years, they'll switch off the analogue system altogether and I'll be left alone like Wall-E, except much, much better.
Have you ever tortured yourself like this? Or am I just some kind of spineless useless fucking fuck? Cos I'm beginning to feel like I might be. I'm never gonna get one at this rate, I'll just end up dead and monstrously rich but with no tv to speak of and that doesn't really leave much scope for an uplifting eulogy.
I've thought about it a bit and realsied it is because I have never spent this much money on anything before (excluding my house and housey related stuff). I keep reading up on tellys, committing to getting one and then bottling it. It just seems like a cuntlot of money to shell out for something which definitely isn't gonna change my life for the better by any noticeable degree, however, I do actually really want one and I want a Wii and I want to buy into that lifestyle of having friends round to watch a film on my fucking massive telly, get them all to comment on how shithot my sound system is and then get them to dance and contort themselves for my amusement using my cock sticks and my Wii. But, in the back of my mind, a nagging doubt lingers that that is not my life, those are not my people and nothing I can ever do can change that: that I am now, always have been and ever will be an analogue manchild, doomed to never watch anything on BBC4 when it's actually on. In a few years, they'll switch off the analogue system altogether and I'll be left alone like Wall-E, except much, much better.
Have you ever tortured yourself like this? Or am I just some kind of spineless useless fucking fuck? Cos I'm beginning to feel like I might be. I'm never gonna get one at this rate, I'll just end up dead and monstrously rich but with no tv to speak of and that doesn't really leave much scope for an uplifting eulogy.







