Ooh. Wierd. More electrogirl/pootle syncronicity (sp?). I got told that too. What with this and the baked bean revelation it's like we're living each others lives or something
Seriously though Ted, thanks for all the advice and that people. This is literally the first time today I've been able to think/talk/type about this without my eyes welling up

which is actually so not me. It's just a facking job.
I'm finding it hard to ask for further feedback though as the panel head is essentially the director of our org and she and I have "history" that I wouldn't like to add to.
Is complicated to explain and I don't want to sound like I'm making excuses but I'm slightly para that my card is marked somewhat having been spotted as the person who ask valid but awkward questions in the team, and says the things that everyone else is thinking...e.g all the assistants in our place have been asked to volunteer to take over a certain role and no one from my team has volunteered for wahtever reason. Our team manager has told all of the assistants to email her and explain/give their reasons why they haven't volunteered! I mean, wtf? Everyone thought this was shocking, but I was the only one who spoke up for our assistants...in my eyes, it was the right thing to do, but in a way also detriemental to my image with management.
Ach! Am rambling...but yeah, as ever, onwards! sideways! etc etc