In the grand scheme of things what we have seen, no matter how much we kid ourselves, is a strong Dulwich Hamlet side on paper, have been knocked out of the London Senior Cup at the semi final stage to an average, though not incompetent, Combined Counties League side that sit in mid-table of their division. At a time when our players have been paid month by month with supporters donating into the "12th MAN" buckets to ensure they do, as well as a lot of hard work behind the scenes from many to just keep the club afloat, this is a real kick in the teeth, and I don't even have many of them left to kick in! I realise it's not the greatest of competitions in the 'modern' overall scheme of things, but a final is a final, and not matter what happens it would have been a fitting finish if we had lifted it in what has been one of the most trying seasons not just in my lifetime, but the entire history of the Club. What the future holds I have no idea...but if the ground situation isn't sorted...I am extremely worried about the future. We will certainly have to go two steps back to move forward if we do not get home to Champion Hill with it under our own control over the next few months. Maybe we are concentrating on the league...but let's be honest, even if Billericay Town implode even more than they have been doing and we won the league [which I don't think they will] or if we make the play-offs, do we genuinely want to win them? For, if we go up and the situation stays the same surely the budget will have to cut drastically, and let's be honest how many of the current side will stay if that happens? We have done magnificently as a Club and community for them still have been paid their wages since Meadow Residential stopped having any input and loaded their debts onto us in November. I don't think any other club out there would have been able to do that. And yet it 'appears' (as fans tend to think, even if it's not entirely rational) that's how 'they' pay us back...with a lacklustre disinterested performance like last night. GUTTED doesn't even begin to cover how I feel this morning. But hey ho, we move on...I am working on Saturday, so have an 'excuse' not to be there, but will be at Tooting for the three home games next week. I will be turning up...I just hope the players do too.