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idiot christians.

Some guy like Alan Watts said that if/when one realizes the universal connection or commonality of all things, one may describe it as a recognition of God, that all things are God, and God is in all things. This awareness can come through drugs, meditation or whatever.

The difficulty for people arises when they come to understand that they are God, but they don't take the next step in realizing that we all are, that everything is.
 
Was he a canadian, with dreads?

Yes. that's Scott.

Lucky Scott, he never had to cope with crowds mashing him up for their own entertainmnent. I wouldn't mind being there myself. But I have nothing to live on.

I was with him one divali morning, and it seemed to open up with a very loud bang right between us, but no banger in sight. After which the day got progressively stranger.
 
Yes. that's Scott.

Lucky Scott, he never had to cope with crowds mashing him up for their own entertainmnent. I wouldn't mind being there myself. But I have nothing to live on.

Ah, but you have been made to suffer, which is pretty much a prerequisite for a messiah. Poor ol' Scott is clearly just a loon living it up in Goa whereas you, you're the one being put through all the trials of life that you might one day have a revelation.

Hopefully it will be a revelation that you are, in fact, just human and have wasted a good portion of your life going off on one. Then you can just get on with enjoying life for what it is.
 
Yes. that's Scott.

Lucky Scott, he never had to cope with crowds mashing him up for their own entertainmnent. I wouldn't mind being there myself. But I have nothing to live on.

I was with him one divali morning, and it seemed to open up with a very loud bang right between us, but no banger in sight. After which the day got progressively stranger.

I really, really like that guy. Think about him a lot. Is he still there? He was in europe a little while ago, not heard from him since.
 
I really, really like that guy. Think about him a lot. Is he still there? He was in europe a little while ago, not heard from him since.

yeah, he was ace. I assumed he was still in Goa, not known whether he came to Europe. He used to say he had problems travelling cause of an outstanding drugs charge.
 
Yup def the same one. I didn't find out how he managed to come over here, as when I knew him he was v depressed about not being able to leave india. How long ago did you meet him?
 
In 2000, I lived in laxmi villas where he was too in the autumn, though I met him in Goa earlier in the year.

eta:

It was thinking of him recommending that some day I should take what he described as "a heroic dose" made me think "maybe I didn't take enough" when ba asked me if I'd taken too many drugs.
 
Ah, but you have been made to suffer, which is pretty much a prerequisite for a messiah. Poor ol' Scott is clearly just a loon living it up in Goa whereas you, you're the one being put through all the trials of life that you might one day have a revelation.

Hopefully it will be a revelation that you are, in fact, just human and have wasted a good portion of your life going off on one. Then you can just get on with enjoying life for what it is.

Thinking that I'm human would hardly be a revelation. Though currently my life does seem to have been mainly wasted. All the same, I don't think it was just me who wasted it. It's become fairly clear that for a while there's been quite a concerted effort by some people to isolate me and drive me over the edge.

As for enjoying life for what it is, well my revelation in a nutshell was that until or unless people got together to change what life is for most people, then most people weren't going to find it possible to enjoy it for what it is, including me.

Well this last week has been interesting, I got myself back in shape about a week ago, seemed to recover something I'd been missing from the om liquid launch party on my birthday, which made me feel a whole lot better, and my daughter phoned me up saying she'd written a song called it don't matter, and I had to bring my guitar so we could record it at christmas. How can I risk not being there for her, if I might be wrong.

I wish I knew what to do now, I have no more great plans, haven't really had any since my court case, well I did have one about escaping this place and living in India, but I can't even afford to do that, and it's not much of an ambition.
 
It's become fairly clear that for a while there's been quite a concerted effort by some people to isolate me and drive me over the edge.
This is textbook paranoia. Not laugh-and-point funny paranoia, but clinical please-seek-help paranoia. Please seek help.
 
Fuck off. If you wanted to be any help you wouldn't post that there.
I know what I know because I've had it confirmed by what people have said.
 
This is textbook paranoia. Not laugh-and-point funny paranoia, but clinical please-seek-help paranoia. Please seek help.


I mean I just don't see how you could have posted a more useless, irrelevant and ignorant comment in reply.

Not only does it show no understanding of me, it also shows no understanding of paranoia. And if you had an ounce of genuine concern, you'd have posted your opinion by pm.
 
I mean I just don't see how you could have posted a more useless, irrelevant and ignorant comment in reply.

Not only does it show no understanding of me, it also shows no understanding of paranoia. And if you had an ounce of genuine concern, you'd have posted your opinion by pm.

Don't you think that this is... well.... a bit of a paranoid reaction?
 
I mean I just don't see how you could have posted a more useless, irrelevant and ignorant comment in reply.

Not only does it show no understanding of me, it also shows no understanding of paranoia. And if you had an ounce of genuine concern, you'd have posted your opinion by pm.
I don't want to get in a fight with you. I don't know you from Adam, I've got no reason to go out of my way to annoy you. Thinking that people are collectively trying to cause you harm is a classic sign of paranoia.

I have a feeling that however I phrase it, or however I sent it to you, you would find a reason to doubt the sincerity of my advice.

I hope you sort yourself out.
 
Thinking that I'm human would hardly be a revelation. Though currently my life does seem to have been mainly wasted. All the same, I don't think it was just me who wasted it. It's become fairly clear that for a while there's been quite a concerted effort by some people to isolate me and drive me over the edge.

Cheer up mate. Fwiw when we met you struck me as an unusually pleasant and intelligent person.
 
Thanks, phil, I'm not feeling so bad at the mo, tbh, that's just how things are. My life has been wasted. I've felt a lot worse about it than I do now.
 
oh yes, I meant to post my new recording once someone bumped this thread.

myspace.com/redfloyd -- judgement day. It could be better, and it's a bit out of date, but i'm quite pleased with it.
 
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