Fuck it i'm going to do it!

[Sadken]

...and then he shat himself.

 

[Pickman's model]

Some days it feels like I should go for it, and others it just scares me that I'll end up making the wrong decision, I won't be able to cope with full-time job, studying, being a mum.

And what if I go down the wrong path? Every decision/change in my life was sort of made for me, it just happened... This time I need to make it happen but I don't know if I have the balls.

i think we all know the answer to that question.

 

[mrs quoad]

I dunno what I'm trying to say really. When I was Liverpool the other day I felt part of something bigger and that I could do anything I wanted to. I was really looking forward to the week as I could put it all into action, but when the week came nothing happened. I probably am relying too much on meditation.

'Nothing happened'...?

Shevek, all this is so passive.

I was hoping something would happen. I felt part of something bigger. Then the week rolled by and just, like, somehow and mysteriously, nothing happened...

I just generally feel confused. I feel as though I should be able to do things (i.e. be succesful) but I can't decide what to do and what risks to take. Although I sometimes feel hopeful the fact that nothing is changing makes me feel a sense of gloom. I feel as though I am going to go on like this indefinately

Well, of course nothing's going to change, unless you change it...

Change is an active process... Not a passive one. Change *happens* over time, to people who actively live in a different way...

And 'success' isn't a 'thing' that someone can 'do'...

I am seeing beyond the obstacles

... then ...

I don't know. Even though I sometimes feel as though I can start to work towards my goals when I decide to do it I find that I don't have the infrastructure around me to do stuff. For example with my desire to do my masters degree I don't have a current library card for the uni library to get books. I want to get a part time job to earn some money but I feel bad about how I look and don't feel confident about approaching employers

I'm lost for words

I can't work on a Masters degree, because I don't have a library card. SO what are you doing about it? Fuck's sake man, try asking the uni if you can have an associate membership, ennit? Or do f***ing something, for the love of god

I can't approach employers because I don't feel confident...

So what are you going to do about it?

Sitting in your comfort zone and doing sweet FA about it is not going to change ANYTHING, Shevek. Change - d'oh - requires stepping outside your comfort zone.

Your comfort zone is precisely that, because you're comfortable there. Because you don't have to change. Because it feels safe.

If you don't want to change, stick in your comfort zone. Listen to that lack of confidence, and do fuck all about it.

If you want to change, then ffs take some control back. It's yours. It's there.

 

[Sadken]

Very good advice from quoad there, who I fear is pissing in the wind.

 

[5t3IIa]

Very good advice from quoad there, who I fear is pissing in the wind.

Oh, I was juts about to say that, but probably a smidge more rudely.

 

[Sadken]

Shitting in a gale? Sicking in a hedge like a cunt? Spunking up your mum's bedroom wall?

 

[Red Cat]

Unless Shevek is trolling, he is clearly unwell and needs help.

Shevek, at the same time as 'using' your bi-polar as an explanation for how your life came unstuck, you also weirdly separate that from what you consider to be your 'mental health' which seems to a state of depression and anxiety induced paralysis. Are they not both part of the same thing? Which perhaps needs exploring and thinking about in a professional therapeutic relationship?