Pingu said:
since finding out its been 20 years (on one of the travellers threads) I have been doing a lot of introspection and looking at where my life has gone.
I am actually ashamed at the direction my life took, I am currently wondering what happened to some of the values I used to hold in such high esteem and just when it was that I sold them out.
had the beanfield not happened (and lots of other ifs tbh) who knows, I would be poorer (cash wise) but probably alot richer in other ways.
fuck it...
At least you are doing the introspection. That's a good thing. There are plenty of people, myself included that think we in a way have sold out and forgotten values, but my lows are soon followed by realisations of the achievements and things that I have done that I know have had a positive impact on other people's lives. My lifestyle can't be measured like Mr and Mrs Jones with their mortgaged place, three kids, car, dog but don't get me wrong I aint criticising that way of life.
I really think that if you're not stepping on other people or knowlingly destroying the local or global environment and are genuinely trying to live a life that is harmonious to those around you and the planet then you are on the right track.
The above might even sound pompous but shit I know that I have stepped back at times in my life and said I don't like that route or that route can have a positive result. I have been in good places too where I have learnt things off people that you could never learn in a class room. I'm sure half the posters on U75 can say that. I really don't know the way forward but I know I don't like Blair's agenda or Bush or id cards or working hard to an early grave. There has to be more. I think just by taking a look at some of the g8 threads and the posts there show that folks are thinking of alternatives and are prepared to act on them.
Looking back at Beanfield, I don't think there can be any clearer illustration of what the state is prepared to do, when people start thinking for themselves and thinking outside of the box and living a different way of life. My respect for authority has always been thinly veiled but now after reading some of this stuff, listening and viewing some of those links well I'm sorry Officer XX - if you put on the uniform then you've got to accept my response to that is not going to be one of respect. It can never be post Beanfield. Those attacks on women and men with children and babies is sick.
At the same time I'm not about to clobber a copper.
To sum up, Pingu, I know life is tough and the thought of a different life is tougher and acting out to live that is even tougher but it aint impossible. Even if you do it in small steps. It just that some things happen in life, some prepared, others by chance that alter your view faster (but that really is a separate thread)
Main Street, still learning to take the small steps too